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A year ago she came over my place and asked me what
would make me the happiest man in the world. Hmmm I
thought. Lots of things came to mind. A little touch of
her essence, and a lot of love is what I was thinking. I
told her that I wanted her and I to become one (get
married that is).
I had been consulting for an agency when I got the call.
They asked me if I was available for another assignment.
Naturally I said yes. The pay was a bit more and I was
looking forward to a new challenge (ha ha). Funny thing
was, is that the assignment was directly down the hall.
So I took a minute and walked down to see the office. She
was sitting at the receptions desk (office managers') and
she was smiling. I think I asked what kind of business it
was there. She said it was a pharmaceutical company. I
believe I thanked her, got a business card and went on my
way.
The next week was when we had our first talk. She was
letting me know what the assignment consisted of, and I
was absorbing as much as I could. The assignment was
enjoyable and the office staff held a unique atmosphere.
You have to understand I wasn't use the to corporate
structure, but that all changed after a time. Anyway we
started to talk (like those before us), and before we new
it we were spending more time together than we were aware
of.
After a time she had told me that I would have to leave
the company, because she was not really sure what she
wanted. Funny thing was I remember telling her when we
first started talking that after my X, I only would want
to have a gal as a friend and nothing else. How about
that. Lookie where destiny takes you. Whoknowswhere Land.
Of course it was a little frustrating her letting me go
and all. But I guess it was for the best. I really
enjoyed the time with her, and got to meet her two kids.
They were great.
Isn't it interesting how two people get attached. I had
assumed that she felt I was getting to close and that it
was her time to go on with life. Well I remembered the
old saying about "assume". It makes an ass out of "U"
& "ME". How about that. A little time thinking about
her and how nice it was to have had her in my life. Well
God must have had a little favor on me, because she
called me a little later on, and said she wanted to see
me. We started seeing each other for a time and making
memories again. You know the movies, eating out, and
actually spending a little time with her kids. Well I
apparently had a few things wrong with me. I was a little
younger than her.(5 yrs), and my finances were not the
best, and still finishing up my degree ($$). These didn't
really add up to a whole lot, but I guess I made her
happier than she had been for some time. It turned out
that every once in a while she would want to be on her
own. I think the one time when I thought it was going to
be over for her and I, was when we had what I thought was
our last moment together. It turned out that she was
going to have another child. Oh boy, she was extremely
concerned as was I, but you see I've never had any kids,
so it was a whole new experience for me.
I found out a little later that she wasn't sure if she
wanted to be with me or what she really wanted. I kept
getting these little hints from her. Then she said that
she had a friend who was married but they could not have
children (as far as they knew), and she considered giving
the child to them. You could imagine how I felt, never
having any children and all. I really wanted to have it
all. But it looked like it was all fading way faster and
faster. I talked to my source for a time, and then asked
her if she would be my wife. The thought of another
person having the opportunity that I thought I would
never have was difficult for me to accept.
I talked with my source for some time then talked with
her. She wasn't sure what she really wanted, and I
stressed knowing this. I talked a little more with my
source and found that she had it set in her mind to give
the unborn one to her friend elsewhere. She said that it
would never work with us. There were too many
complications between us. This didn't make me feel much
better. What a test of faith. Speaking of faith my source
said to trust "the source". So I did, and figured out
that she was going to have her way. There were other
discrepancies involved (that I can't go over) that sort
of guaranteed her prevail. These were not really trivial,
but more so traditional.
We continued to be friends, and it soon came be the
ending of the year. She the kids and I spend the years
last moments together. I thought I would never see her
again. I told her that I had faith in her and I knew she
would make the right decision. After we had parted having
no idea what was to become of all this confusion, I
talked with my source a little more, and then called it
a year.
Wondering how it all turned out. Well if you read the
first paragraph it should give you some clue. If you
don't quite remember, then talk to your source, if you
listen carefully you might figure it out too. See
below.....
This is one of many events about the intimate one. She's
something else. I know there's a lot to view out there,
each in it's own uniqueness. So I'll leave it up to you
to return and visit the many eventful happenings with the
intimate one. Journal? You might ask - well I'll let you
decide that for yourself. Come back soon, and broaden
your own visualizations. Feel free to E mail me and tell
me a little about your own experience that might relate
to this particular event that has changed my future. Who
knows I might even post it to this site. Unless of course
you too would like to remain anonymous.
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